So this weekend my mental health took a dip. I turned into a slug and everything I had originally planned to do with my weekend, went out the window.
I have depression and anxiety. I am medicated for both but some days the medication just doesn't do it and you know something, that is okay! It can happen for a day or two and even three days in a row. I allow myself these days! I allow myself to not get out of bed and just drink tea all day, binge watch netflix and sometimes even cry all day. It helps. The only way it would get worse is trying to force myself to do something that will only make me sore physically and mentally. Trying to force myself out the house or do housework or even crocheting, can hurt me more than just being a slug for a day. I allow myself one "slug day" to just let myself relax and chill out. Don't get me wrong, it is hard doing these "slug days" with a child about and now a teenager, as they tend to make more work for me and seeing the mess they create happening around me, tends to lower my mood more. (Typical teenager, doesn't help unless rewarded. *sighs*)
If my mood continues on to the next day, I don't tend to "slug it" as much. I get up and do basic housework: Hoovering, Laundry, Tidying up any mess the little and teenager have left. This is normally the day I tell the teenager to do his chores or the wifi password is being changed. That normally gets him shifting into gear.
I will also go in a shower. I feel that it tends to wash away my mood. I don't normally take a shower longer that 10-15 minutes because if I do, I get the little one or the teenager chapping the door asking me for something or just wanting a general chat to get out of doing chores. Yet the teenager can take a 45m-1hour shower and we have all to wait. (this has made me realise what my parents were talking about me taking long showers as a teen, so I shouldn't really moan.) But the shower does help. After that is normally when I either jump into my comfy clothes or pj's and have a cup of tea and scroll through Pinterest/YouTube.
Day three, normally this is when I'm starting to be more myself. Things will start to become "normal" again. Routines and daily things will begin to happen and I will probably encourage myself to get out the house and get some fresh air around my face. I tend to maybe pop down and see family or go to the nearest supermarket.
Anyways, this weekend. I think it has stemmed from a week of having a sick bug and mother nature tagging along. Friday, I went out and got shopping. Took the little one with me, as she had been sick as well. I love spending time with just me and her. It's been that way since the day she was born. Days out with my little human, tend to make me really happy, even more now since she is 4 and is becoming more and more her little person. So on Friday, we went to visit Gran, mini humans choice, then went for some shopping. She is still small enough to sit in the seat in the shopping trolley and we whizzed around the store. Couple things picked out by the little one. Got home and then had something to eat.
The rest of the weekend ended up me feeling pretty down for no reason at all but I put it down to recovering from the bug and mother nature, so I slumped into it. Scrolled through facebook/twitter/instagram/youtube and found a couple things I was glad to find. I also ending up creating a new private board on pinterest for the new house. Deciding I was to DECLUTTER all my house and get rid of most things and start a fresh. New items for each room. Leaving most things bought for this house here, or soon to be dumped. This has really lifted my spirits this weekend. Deciding this and colour schemes for the house.
This weekend, I am determined to De-Clutter all my clothes and the little humans clothes. Really clamping down on my own clothes and only having so many items of clothing. Creating more space for myself just now, as I only live in a two bed flat. The teenager currently occupying the little humans room and the little human sharing my room. So looking around everything seems to be piling up. I think this will help so much with how I have been feeling. Getting rid of things I don't wear/use/want/make me happy/need.
Wish me luck with that, I normally find this kind of thing difficult but I think I will feel alot better after doing it!
I think I will post a blog about it and maybe post a before and after picture ( THE HORROR!! )